Happy Wednesday Blog world! We are starting our work week over here on the heels of a whirlwind trip to Wilmington - we left yesterday at 4:00 pm and returned this morning at 1:00 am for a Wilmington Weddings Holiday party. We are working on expanding our network in Wilmington and these vendor blenders are a fun way to do it!
Lately I have been feeling a bit stressed and overwhelmed with personal and business situations and I tend to get stuck in fear and worry about what the future holds or what path to take next. I was really looking forward to this Christmas holiday as we really didn't have one last year as we were in the throes of constructing our cottage, trimming out the Bradford, and oh yeah...having that Baby that is about to be one (that's a whole other post!) Then right when I was getting into my Christmas groove the Transmission in our Honda (The only Family car we have) went out (again!) Yes, this will be the second transmission we donate to this beast! It really got me down, stressed, worried, and anxious - which affects my mood and consequently the moods of all those around me. I know it's not right, I know I shouldn't wallow in self pity, I know I have SO many good things in my life - and all I can see is a transmission and all the dollars I don't have to put toward it!
I'm not gonna lie - some tears have been shed over the situation - we aren't in the best financial shape - we are on the road to recovery from this last 2 years where every extra dime we had went into building and/or surviving - timing could not have been worse! But that's just not true. It dawned on me that in the middle of this "tragedy" I live next to my sister - we mostly go to the same destinations and we mostly do it together - I have time and an emergency exit plan in place - I can shop around for the best option for my pocketbook. Silver lining? maybe - jealous of their 2 working vehicles? sometimes. But really just grateful to be in a situation where it's really not dire and I have family that thankfully has a working car that can accommodate our brood and is willing to let me tag along or borrow from time to time.
It occurred to me that lots of my fear and anxiety and stress over this year is bred out of a spirit of ingratitude and self-pity - and both of those feelings are just not warranted in my situation. I have SOOO much to be grateful for and so little to really fret over - like healthy kids, a husband that supports me, a sister who would do anything for me and mine, parents that pray for me, and a God that forgives me for my ungrateful heart.
Thanks so much for taking the time to read this and spend time today thinking about what in your life you are grateful for.